R U kidding ME?

On my Lab Final I got an A
So yesterday I had a day off, which should have been nice. My house is a frickin disaster, Zack would not let me study for my Biology Lecture Final, I had a final that night, Im stressed out, and life just overall sucks at the moment.
I tried to study all day, but Zack just wasnt cooperating so I finally went in the closet and put in a Christmas Present ( Peter Pan) just so he would leave me alone so i could study a little bit. I needed 61/75 to keep my A. Not hard so I wasnt too stressed, but my tests in this class havent been very good. Ive all but .5 of the 200 or so points involving labs, worksheets, and group assignments. But have been averaging 80% on her tests... actually I got 82,82,90 on them.
The test was pretty hard, meaning there was a lot of weird questions I wasnt expecting at all. I never take a long time on tests though so I was done in 30 minutes ( first actually but I didnt turn it in until a few others did) I would have been done in half hour if I got them all right or wrong so that is no indicator of how I did.
Well I went online and checked my grade... I got 60/75...... R U FICKIN KIDDING ME? I lost my A by one point!!!! Actually by .5 of a point!!! I NEED the A. Hygiene school is too competitive to get a B. They only take 12 students if I dont have a 4.0 in the pre-reqs just set my app to the side...... Why do so many people like biology better I dont think it is eaiser than Chemistry. I got like 97% in Chemistry and that was when I was pregnant and exhausted and huge.

I was upset until I scrolled back up top of the grade page.. ( online thing thats lists your grade on every assignment) and there was this

Points 381.5/424 (thats 89.976%)
Grade B
Comments your actual grade will be an A

YIPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
she rounded me up! I love her!
It was a deja vu of 6th grade when Ms.Speckien gave me a B in Math 6+ when I had 89.99%. This time I won!!!

So that was my biology story.
Zackary has another viral skin infection on his forehead, neck, back and chest different than the one he had this summer. He also has spelling will be wrong impetigo. ( Remember Americas Next Top Model a couple seasons back when the really ugly Man looking model got an infection all over face its that) Zack's is just on his chin though.
Christmas is around the corner and I am looking forward to it, not for normal reasons but I will be taking my first placebo pill in the birth control pack which will be followed by my period and I will be done with pack One of Two!
And Matts insurance isnt covering the blood work I had done either... $146 and they all of sudden want proof Im not covered anywhere else? whatever.
Matt has sat. sun. mon. tues off and so do I so this will be a fun break. I also have the day after xmas off. finally I will be able to get my house clean.

Finals

So I have my lab final for Biology tomorrow and I havent looked at anything yet and its 730 at night. Lets add to the fact Im writing a blog instead of studying. At the end of a semester I am just too burnt out to care and I showed up everyday but 1 so I know Ive heard of the information. I really need an A in this class though, the hygiene program only takes 12 and only in the fall so any B I get puts someone else in front of me. I really want to be done done with school in 5 years as is I cant get into the program until Fall of 09. I have completed week 1 of 8 of birthcontrol. It went by pretty fast Im hoping this first month flies due to the holidays, the second month should fly then too because I will be looking forward to getting my period. ( I know who thought they'd ever say that) My insurance apparently doesnt cover fertility drugs at all either so lets hope this happens quick so I dont go into debt trying to get knocked up. I dont know how long they will cover the blood tests every cycle either. If they dont, they should if I really do have pcos, then dr.Wust is treating a medical condition not just infertility. Anyways I just have to pick up some stamps so I can mail out my christmas cards. And we deceided on what we were doing for Zackys Bday. A pool party and hotel stay at Grand Rios 29th and 30th come out and swim with us, let me know if you are interested and I will let you in on the details, its going to be very informal come swim for a few hours if you want.

Matthew is one of only two laborers working tomorrow at flatiron in his division, because apparently they have noticed what a hard worker he is and he was able to organize the job site which put them ahead of schedule. Way to go Matty!

A watched pot never boils...

Well, I got the results back from my blood test. The doctor was shooting for a progesterone level above 18, this would mean there was a good chance I ovulated. My progesterone level was 1. seriously a loser 1, with tomxifen, with prenatals, with folic acid, eating right, working out, and no caffeine. Dr.Wust was pretty shocked with my level so much so he asked if I took the prescription or was this a natural cycle. Hell yes I took it, later in my cycle then recommended, but I took it. I also knew that I probably didnt ovulate though because my temperature dropped then rose but then dropped again and then rose again, clear sign no chance. So a sad decision was made, since no perscription is having any effect on me ( remember the prometrium was suppose to give me a heavy period and I got nothing) he thinks I need to start fresh. Im being put on birth control for two months to reset my cycle. It is a high hormone pill that I will take for two months to make sure that second period is a solid start to a cycle, I will then take clomid for days 5 through 9 and get my blood drawn on day 21-23 again. Hopefully this means that around March I will update you with a positive test.
He also dropped a bomb on me stating he thinks I have moderate pcos. I researched symptoms below:

• infrequent menstrual periods, no menstrual periods, and/or irregular bleeding Check
• infertility (not able to get pregnant) because of not ovulating Check
• increased hair growth on the face, chest, stomach, back, thumbs, or toes—a condition called hirsutism (HER-suh-tiz-um) I dont think I have this, because my hair is black so its more noticeable anyway
• ovarian cysts ??
• acne, oily skin, or dandruff check, check, check
• weight gain or obesity, usually carrying extra weight around the waist check
• insulin resistance or type 2 diabetes nope
• high cholesterol check
• high blood pressure no
• male-pattern baldness or thinning hair no
• patches of thickened and dark brown or black skin on the neck, arms, breasts, or thighs no
• skin tags, or tiny excess flaps of skin in the armpits or neck area I DO!
• pelvic pain yes sharp pains every so often
• anxiety or depression due to appearance and/or infertility depression Im sure
• sleep apnea—excessive snoring and times when breathing stops while asleep I dont think so

So what do you think? Keep you updated.
Matt starts at Flatiron building the 35W bridge tomorrow wish him luck!
Its also his big 25 on Thursday!

Start taking my for sure you aint pregnant pill today..... :(

BORED

So I got an appointment for Friday to go get my lab work done, so hopefully that goes well.
Christmas pictures was a mess, Zack was not very cooperative at all and only wanted to take pictures and not be in them. Matt becomes uncooperative when Zack does so I was dealing with 2 two year olds on the Saturday after thanksgiving at the Mall of America... wonderful.
I also couldnt remember how many Christmas cards I needed so I bought the 48 versus the 72 well turns out I needed 60 so instead of having 12 tooo many I have 12 less than I need. Who doesnt want one? Just kidding I don't know if I will order more from them or make more at Target or what.. we will see.
So apparently the people who developed the land our house is situated on didn't pay the people who did the work, so they are trying to put a lien on all the properties in the development. He wants his 23755.91 which I can understand, but you ain't getting it from us we already paid our 50,000 for our lot and I know the developers have received 350,000 from lots that have sold so... get it from them. I called some people and since we have title and lender insurance apparently it will protect us so we don't have to pay anything more which is nice. Well which is right since we already paid in full for our lot...
Another wonderful bit of news our proposed property taxes came back for next year and it will be great only a 2050% increase from this year... no no not a typo our mortgage is about to increase 180 dollars a month to about 1575... those taxes are more than my mom pays in coon rapids, more than we paid in spring lake park all on around the same size lots and we live in the frickin boonies!
So since all of these crappy things are happening I think it is about time for something good to happen to us.
Side note of all of my families to NOT have Christmas due to drama I find it a little Ironic my mom's dysfunctional family is the only one that might have Christmas this year.....
my step-moms family is in the midst of a cheating wife sister battle
my dads family can not agree on a date due to people not want to spend time ON Christmas day even though we have forever and every other family changed their party days to accommodate that.
P.S. for our anniversary and also my early xmas gift Matt finally got me those diamond studs I wanted to replace the tiny ones I have been wearing for the last three years. .88 tcw!!!

Please Make me Fat

So, I did not eat very good yesterday because we went to the movie with Mom and had pizza. I had Umbria pizza which just happens to be my favorite and with out a doubt the best delivery Pizza you can have. They are expensive because they know they are too. They are located in Blaine though so we dont have it very often since we can only pick it up and go some where to eat it. The tropical chicken is AMAZING! Anyways I told Matt I was going to eat a lot and if I got fat it would be okay as long as I had gotten that way due to Umbria Pizza, that means I would have had a delicious time getting there anyway. Well, after Pizza we went to Enchanted which we had promised Zack on Thanksgiving, but with lack of nap he was a little too cranky, and the thought of getting up at 530am and going to a 9pm movie in Coon Rapids made my stomach churn.
It is a great movie, I laughed a lot and Zacky at the end kept saying "that was a great movie" lately he has been saying a lot of things that make Matt and I break out laughing.... He woke up this morning yelling "I have to go potty I have to go potty" I smacked Matt to get up and help him ( due to the fact if I get outta bed BEFORE taking that damn temperature it will not be accurate and that is my greatest pitfall as to why I have blank days... zack yells I jump outta bed from a dead sleep and then think damn it!) So anyways Matt took him to the bathroom and he went pee, Matt kept saying good job Zacky to which Zacky responded " can you quit saying that over and over?" I started cracking up in bed when I heard this.
I worked the day after Thanksgiving and it looked like it was going to be another 1 hour behind pull your hair out day, but it turned into done an hour early, i didnt leave because Im short hours this week and I needed that one, but I was able to leave ontime.
Matt went shopping with Zacky, and got him his first real haircut and it looks good, hebought his tool box he wanted which I think is his birthday present, but we need to discuss further because I havent bought him anything for our anniversary on Monday... 2years married and (5 years together officially early this month even though we started dating in September 02, but we all know Matty and being shy) Finally by the way when I called Matt after I got off he told me he made reservations for Benihana's for our anniversary dinner some place Ive wanted to go back too, for 2 years now. Its not Vegas, but that is an expensive anniversary to have every year. Matt also got something we wanted for Zack that was on sale and something I wanted for my mom, all of the onsale ones were sold out, but we ended getting the more expensive version. Matt made that decision by himself which is surprising because it was pretty expensive, but at least he realizes how many times she has bought us groceries when we have had none and diapers for Zack when our account was negative. If you havent seen her lately she is most definitely the incredible shrinking woman down 2 pants sizes from October.
Thanksgiving was good we had a lot of fun, Zack was able to play with Logan, but I can see how not having many child to child interactions make it difficult for Zack to understand the concept of friends and playing.... "Im a good boy, I want to be his friend" was my favorite line of the night.
Today we are off to tread the halls of the Mall of America. Zack has an appointment for his Christmas Picture, wish us smiles!
P.s. I didnt do the video yesterday even though it was the day ( it was late when we got back from the movie), so today I will do it and do 2 songs at least.

Yet again...

Oh Nikki you'll get a kick outta this. Many, many times in my life I have been asked the wonderful question... "What are you" yet again today I was asked that very question. Never in my wildest dreams I would think random strangers would pose that question to a person, and not time after time, person after person. I find it odd, people that are around me and actually know me have never asked me that question, but perfect strangers who may only have been talking to me but a few minutes have asked more times then fingers on my hand. Today it was the usual " You look Asian or maybe its Mexican" which in my opinion look very different and how I could look like one and then the other without really looking like either is beyond me. I have been asked if I was (most popular) Asian, Mixed, Mexican, Spanish, and Black. Um no. Just because my eyes are almond shape and brown does not mean I am Asian. I use to get really upset when people would say this to me and when people would tease me about this, I dont anymore because now I just think it is funny to see how many times people ask me what I am and all of the different nationalities they think I am. Never has anyone guessed plain old German and Norwegian.
I can totally feel the burn still today, but Im determined to do that damn tape again. I did my CPR course today and that worked out great and it took less than 2hours instead of the 3hours they told me which was really nice.
Now I get to sleep in tomorrow morning and go to Thanksgiving. I think I am doing a pretty good job with my eating. NOT A DIET. Im just trying to make better choices, I can still have anything because I find when I deprive myself of things I really like I binge eat which isnt good. So I got up and cut up an apple and ate it on my drive to work, I had a Roastbeef, lettuce, cheese in a tortilla shell wrap with Ritz Cracker chips, 2 bottles of Propel water for lunch, we went to Applebees for dinner and I chose an item off of the weight watchers menu, but added a cup of soup and had 2 sierra mists. I think I did pretty good today, I will have a sugar free jello snack and maybe another propel water too.
I think I will get up and make Eggs and Ham so I dont overeat at Thanksgiving. Plus Matt wanted me to make Bacon Broccoli salad and thats about as good for you as jar of Mayo, but is so tasty I know I wont be able to resist.
Have a Happy Thanksgiving.

Feel the burn

So I have completed my perscription of Tamoxifen and now I just have to 1. have lots of sex 2. get my blood drawn in the 10-13days after today. Which brings me to the next question, I started on day 7 not day 5 so would it be better to get my blood drawn on the tenth day after the completion which is a friday or the 13th which is a Monday. I was leaning toward the friday one because if I would have starte on day 5 that would be in the 12th day. One thing I have learned through this process is Zack was a frickin gift! If it is truly this hard for me to get pregnant then man, Zack was meant to be. As I always say to Matt, meant to be together. Well I have lab tonight so in a few minutes I will do my regular 1 1/2 hr drive to school sit there for 2 hours and drive an hour home. fun. Luckily Thanksgiving releases me from school on Thursday. I also have a CPR lady coming to my house tomorrow to renew my card since I couldnt find a program that would work with my schedule. so nice she comes to your frickin house.

Anyways, worked sucked today we were an hour behind all day. I just realized after I posted my title refers to the Dancing with the Stars workout video that I finally found at BestBuy, my thighs are frickin killing me.

I have breast cancer

Well that title is decieving, I dont. Which means I should state the title is a lie. I did however finally get a call from my OB Dr.Wust and he asked if I was "happy just trying month to month..." or "would I like medical intervention.." Of course I was like MAKE ME PREGNANT! I was seven days into my new cycle and he said it might be a little late for this month, but we will try anyhow. So my hopes arent too high for finding out this month, but maybe next month. I was perscribed Tamoxifen, which is where my title comes from, google it and you will read how it is a breast cancer drug people take when they've already had breast cancer to try to prevent it from returning or something. Dr.Wust assured me I was not being given chemotherapy. Im suppose to take 3 a day for days 5 through 9 of my cycle. But I will be taking them for days 7 through 11 so I still hope it works. Its kinda like clomid I guess, but I was doing some reading and the studies dont show significant increase in pregnancies necessarily, but there is an increase in ovulation. So hopefully for me it will do both, make me ovulate (which he confirmed I havent been doing) and allow a pregnancy. After completion of the drug I have to go in at the 10-13 day period to have my blood drawn and my progesterone levels checked. I also read the increase of multiple pregnancies is like less than 1% which is also a good thing. I really really want to be pregnant.. so I have cut all caffeine from my diet, have changed my diet ( starting now more drastically then before... not a diet, but smaller portion sizes and better decisions) Once my sprite 12pk is gone I will be removing all pop too. I was trying to find the dancing with starts workout video but couldnt find it at target or walmart. I plan on doing that tape too to help get some exercise in my life! Still taking my temperatures and now taking a prenatal and folic acid. sooo that is the most recent update of my Quest for a Princess as I just decided it should be named.
On another happy note. Someone made my day and dropped their evening Anatomy and Physiology 1 and so I only have to drive to century 2 days a week and continue to work my 7 to 230 shift which I love. With my Doctor that actually dont mind working for. Life at this moment is good. ( yesterday night lifes moments sucked balls.)