Pregnancy

Im 8 weeks today, I thought I would do a blue since there is that chance I might be carrying a little brother....
I also stayed home sick today, I hardly ever do that, but I just didnt feel good, I have a cold, and Im a little overwhelmed at the moment
My last pregnancy I hit a depression from Sept- Nov... I lost control of my house and my tears and all my connections I needed. A friend came and helped me get organized again and set me on the right track.
Well I look at my house and I start to see it unravel again, Ive been exhausted and tired and work and zack and school just makes it sooo hard. So Matt and I discussed it and Im getting rid of one of those things that is making difficult and since there is only one I technically can get rid of I dropped A and P 1, Im putting Hygiene school on hold for 1 year. It still fits into about 5 years but I am taking this year off to be pregnant and have a baby like most people do.
I already proved I could go to school and have a baby and finish a degree, i dont feel like I need to show I can do it again. I already have a degree and a job going to school is just to advance farther, this year i just want to be mommy and it feels so good to not have to go to school.
I went Tuesday night, that class would kill me if I drove all the way home, I would get home at 11, I NEVER go to bed that late, Im in bed by 9pm kinda person and have been for a long time, we get up at 530am I need LOTS of sleep. Second, I could not stand the teacher, his style, or even the layout of his syllabus. Everyone had questions because his "simple" layout was so frickin confusing.... the lab was entirely too long for a first day, no directions really, with a get done what you can and hand it in... what? Im not learning. I bought your stupid (150) textbook ( which I will not be able to return) so we could have it if we went to "medical or dental" school..... look at your group! Half of us are over forty half of us have kids and full time jobs and the other half of us are ghetto fabulous, we are in a night class, at a community college, none of our goal is to make it to medical or dental school. ( he was a chiropractor and also went to medical school or something) He also wanted us to buy another atlas and the coloring book.... totaling 250.00 for that class.... community college class. Anyways the moment he began talking I knew it just wasnt going to work. Matt okd it, and its done. I didnt read chapters 1 through 4 last night, I dont have a quiz on chemistry tonight and I dont have a worksheet due on Tuesday.... yeah!
Matts parent also want us to start paying them back the money they owe them.... we were planning on it, but just when we were financially ready too, we are not. They do not need the money and if they did it would have already been paid back. This is the reason I didnt want to borrow money from them in the first place... I do the bills not Matt, Im paying the people who need to be paid the ones that wrecked my credit, and I wasnt going to start to pay them back until I paid off most all of our credit cards.... I know Ron brought it up because its soon to be tax season, but get your grubby hands off... every cent goes to Providian who is charging me 32% interest and wont lower it, a whole year of not using, paying on time, anywhere from 230-250 with my balance going down 1000.00 sucks. Ive talked to them, I wrote them, now we will just pay them off at tax time.
Matt went to the dentist on Tuesday and he had two cavities, which is good for Matt, but they told him he will never not have cavities, or bad gums, and will start to lose his teeth if he doesnt get braces...
Matts parents asked him if he wanted braces when he was like 14.... asked him. He said no like most 14 year old boys would if given a choice. So they took that as "Ha we dont have to pay for it" Im a dental assistant and an orthodontic assistant, you dont ask little children what they want, because they would choose not to have the cavity filled, the tooth doesnt need to be pulled, I dont want braces they hurt, you tell them... youre the frickin parent there isnt a choice in this.
Now we are stuck paying for braces, at age 25 and the severe crowding he has he will have them on for at least 3 years, and of course he is over the age limit for most dental plans with some orthodontic coverage. Fee at the Smile Center $4280.00 with a $250.00 Records Fee... yikes... who thinks we should just deduct the cost of braces from what we owe the Schaefers.... we would be paid in full almost times 2.